All of Her Things

I’ve been in this space between wanting to be more social and staying under the covers. I go through periods where I feel the need to try so hard to be with people and make new friends, but right now, I think I prefer the quiet. There are multiple reasons for this too.

A Busy Two Years

My husband and I have done so much over the last two years. Starting with our wedding, followed by lots of travel (most of it for fun), then moving out of both of our apartments, and finally moving into our home. When we’re not traveling, it seems like most weekends are filled with catching up with my husband’s family or our friends. I love when we have weekends with NOTHING on the calendar, but there are very few of them.

At this moment

Right now, I’m busier than I have been over the last year or so. I’m learning German, and honestly, it takes a lot of my mental energy. I’m actually surprised I’m able to write this short piece because every day has included reviewing my German, going to class, doing homework, and repeating.

Also, I’ve been training for the Copenhagen Half Marathon over the past few months. It took me some time to get comfortable accepting that I don’t run as fast as I used to, but I’m okay with it now. Our bodies can do amazing things, and I’ll be happy just to finish strong!

Finally, I’ve been getting back into singing. I’ve been working with a voice teacher again, hoping to return to Opera music.

What I Sometimes Yearn For

When I lived in Philly, I had a pretty solid routine. I planned a busy social schedule around an intense work schedule, but I knew when I’d see my friends each week. I’d like to have a solid routine again. Right now, each month is different. I’m in German class, yes, but that only lasts a few months. I hope to feel good about working again soon, maybe part-time, and be able to build a consistent routine with days for friends, rest, and quality time with my husband.

Besides being in a class with lots of new people, my current routine doesn’t feel complete. It’s missing meaningful friendships.

Something I Have to Remember

There’s nothing wrong with needing rest. I’ve become much more comfortable speaking up when I don’t want to be social.

What I’m looking Forward To

I’m looking forward to October. I’m taking a little break before progressing to the next German level, but I still need to study and practice a lot. Besides that, I’m excited to enjoy fall in Germany, not training for a race, hopefully hiking and climbing, seeing my friends, and resting. My husband and I will start some boxing training before we travel to Thailand next year!

Overall, I won’t beat myself up because I choose to stay in bed whenever I can. It feels like a privilege. What a privilege to make a choice, find some balance, set a boundary for yourself and your health, and truly be content with it.

So! Gute Nacht Luete. Ich bleibe glücklich im Bett.

…or something.

Always,

Dani